Okay, so I’ve been MIA for a few weeks. I had to take time off due to some minor life events, but I’m back and ready to begin anew!
It’s been a stressful few months; to summarize the past season of my life, I’ve been working full-time, studying incessantly for the GMAT, applying to graduate programs, and attempting to deal with annoying, inhibiting health complications. Blogging and playing with makeup are things I really enjoy doing, mostly because it’s a breath of fresh air when I’m engrossed in other stressful things for all of the daylight hours. A creative outlet has been a mainstay for as long as I can remember. During one of my worse semesters in college, I would stay up well past midnight to teach myself the guitar simply because my brain needed to switch gears after memorizing boatloads of investment theory and formulas. So, blogging and sharing my makeup playtime functioned to meet the same purpose. It took my mind off of the strenuous daytime activities.
There came a point a couple of weeks prior to my GMAT test date, however, where I realized that my blogging was become a cause, rather than relief, for my anxieties. I was so obsessed, for lack of a better word, with studying that everything else became a nuisance. Quietly, I eased away from makeup and decided to rest my body and mind. I’m glad I decided to do this instead of pressuring myself to continually post meaningless content, especially because the stress I was putting on myself was aggravating my health complications. I won’t share what my complications are because 1. they are not relevant to this post and 2. I am still looking for answers and resolutions.
Taking the time away from this blog and from makeup in general allowed me to get through my time of stress, handle my anxieties, and keep my love for makeup exactly what it is– an enjoyment. I think it becomes rather easy to assume too much responsibility. There is a time and place for pushing our mental and physical limits, but it’s equally important in life to make the tougher decisions as to when we need to pull back from our workload. As a self-proclaimed perfectionist, I obsess over achievement. It’s a pressure that is both internalized and self-inflicted, which is a wonderful character trait to have in moderation. I know it’s a common issue that a lot of us have, and this small period of pressure really brought this to light in my life.
While the abundance of pressure I placed on myself is a light load in comparison to the pressure in the lives of some others, I do believe the idea of letting go is something that I will carry as life’s pressures become increasingly taxing. If you are anything like me, and you want to tackle everything and anything to a perfect tee, please keep in mind that the things that bring you peace should never become harbingers of anxiety. And, when others around you fail to understand the pressure you are under and minimize your heavy load, take a deep breath and return to your place of peace — wherever that may be. Continue to work on what you believe will allow you to grow, patiently await the successes you cultivate, and quietly envelop yourself in your convictions.
xoxo The Offbeat Venusian
James 1:12 Anyone who meets a testing challenge head-on and manages to stick it out is mighty fortunate. For such persons loyally in love with God, the reward is life and more life.
Thank you for taking the time to read what I have to say. I hope it was helpful, or at the very least interesting. Should you have any questions or words to share, please contact me. If you are interested in keeping up with my beauty finds, you can find me on Instagram @offbeatvenusian.